Just once
19 December 2014
"I was always hungry for love. Just once, I wanted to know what it was like to get my fill of it ― to be fed so much love I couldn't take any more. Just once."
Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood
I don't know, what to do.
I know what I want. I know what I am fed up with. I know what I should. And shouldn't.
I know what I fear. And what I am scared of.
I know every step is just another decision. It always work out at the end.
But I can't move.
My Angel with a Hammer, where are you now, when I need You the most? Why don't you help me just one more time? Just close the door, one or another.
Everything is better. Let me run again.
Just once. Just now.